Intensity of Prayer
Would you care to know what
I am thinking?, as I sit in the dentist
chair for a cleaning, wondering if the
hygienist sees any meaning, in an
ugly form of existence--teeth rotting!
I realize this form of writing is not
for everyone, as it may seem frivolous,
unimportant, compared to other discussions,
though for me it gives a voice to the
great intensity I often feel, though can't speak.
So often I'm confronted with my
inability to express my deepest feelings
and understandings, which indicates a lack
of actual realization; although words are limited,
simple, profound expression is given the pure.
Still, I hope the intensity to share is OK with you,
for me, it's purification, and to be a giver;
explaining about Krishna is itself uplifting--
even mixed with our life, going within deeply
helps us to better understand as we give.
Prayer and the Name, my constant companion
to counteract my illusion that
everything is fine with me---NO, it's not!--
as I am still forgetful who I really am as
soul and servant of Krishna--so I need help!
My dear Sweet Lord of my Heart
save me from complacency, familiarity,
ego's enjoying mentality, apart from you,
that this body and it's possessions are mine--
truly nothing is mine, but you!
The Naked Truth, my Absolute necessity
to cut though the falsity,
bringing me misery of physical reality--
if only I can realize my self and
see service to you as my only treasure!
We all must empty out our cups of deception,
all our material attachments, desires, fears
so we can fill our heart cups full of Prema
(your love) and activities favorable to devotion
which is our satisfying eternal position.