On the Path of Perfection we Keep on Keeping on

0

Like a baby learning to walk
by repeatedly falling, though relentless
to keep trying; undaunted by failure,
determined to succeed, knowing we will stand,
we must humbly, yet confidently approach Krishna.

_______________________________________
Not completely sure what it is that brings
the urge to write and express–what?
the intensity I feel in the heart
of being so much more than
I could possibly express–though I keep trying.

In some ways I’m at peace
in my body, awakening Krishna's
gifts of service, yet part of me
remembers that I’m a soul who
doesn’t need a body, and wants out.

I do know I have to remain here
though contrary feelings swirl inside
while writing helps sort them out,
hoping to help you know that
you are not alone in duality and struggle.

In the Gita we learn that the world
is constantly changing; different emotions,
different seasons, stages of mind, ages of body,
types of karma and mercy; ups, downs, arounds,
forward, backward, competing modes, never the doer.

By blessings, spiritual knowledge, experience, sadhana
we learn that all these changes and dualities
are unnatural for us, the soul, and thus we
seek true permanence and stability of being
in our constitutional nature of Krishna Prema and Seva.

I know I’m getting somewhere here
as my eyes are tearing up,
like getting a glimpse of my
true authentic self beyond matter,
consciousness, experiencer trying to come out.

Other then uncovering the soul
there is no other problem (to be realized!);
because we have desires we have
created obligations and responsibilities
by which we define ourselves.

Alas for the false ego that runs
my life in the vain pursuit to keep
the illusion going—I know I keep
saying this—but have we really understood?:
Krishna's the real center, we orbit around him.

The common themes I express in
verse indicate I stand before a vast
chasm or high hurdle I must go beyond,
over, or through to the other side of anarthas
to the high stages of devotion and prema.

Like a baby learning to walk
by repeatedly falling, though relentless
to keep trying; undaunted by failure,
determined to succeed, knowing we will stand,
we must humbly, yet confidently approach Krishna.

If we are sincere in our endeavor
keeping alive the fire of faith
praying for help to be always steady
in our attempt, our love will be uncovered
for Krishna and we’ll live in his abode.

Then all parts of us will be in
harmony and unity; we’ll be satisfied
in our true, pure nature of total giving
and service to that person who is more
dear than life, we attain ideal, lasting love.

We can’t go to Krishna’s Temple
with our shoes on—we have to leave
our false conceptions, material dirt and desires
outside, putting on spiritual raiment
of pure heart, loving desires of selfless service.

Our attempts to express our deepest love and
affection for Krishna are never finished; we keep
singing his glories and pastimes forever, continuing
to serve by sharing our love as we desire by cooking,
cleaning, decorating for him, now and in perfection.

Combined comments from old site

Fri, 10/24/2008 - 04:41 — shikha
HARE KRISHNA

fantastic post . thanx for sharing


Mon, 09/29/2008 - 05:44 — Go-Seva
You have better articulated...

what I was feeling in my last desperate post.

"In some ways I’m at peace
in my body, awakening Krishna's
gifts of service, yet part of me
remembers that I’m a soul who
doesn’t need a body, and wants out."

That's what I meant to say and how I feel all the time.

Thank you for understanding. I am glad I am not alone with this feeling.

Your servant,
Lisa


*Reply*

Mon, 09/29/2008 - 08:43 — Karnamrita.das
Thinking of you

I was thinking of what you said with this line, though it is how I often feel---and many others as well. We have to be at peace with our lot, though striving to improve when warranted, accepting the results as Krishna's mercy. Even though the material world sucks in many ways, it is meant to teach us to turn toward Krishna, and in that way is perfectly designed for its' purpose. The Goswami's give the example of a wife (or we could say a man as well) who has another lover, and carries out the household duties better than before so no one will suspect. So we have another lover, the blue cowherd, and we can execute our early duties to the best of our ability while we remember our real home and love. Of course we also offer our ordinary work as service to him, and that makes a huge difference. Still, having a material body, ego and mind is quite disturbing at times, and we wonder why it couldn't be easier to wake up. It all takes time, effort and mercy, and Krishna has his own time frame. In the mean time we try to see him in all things as we patiently wait upon the Lord.

Your friend in Krishna,

Karnamrita


Mon, 09/29/2008 - 04:26 — Snehal
Sincere devotee

Hare Krishna!

Wonderful poem! I think this the story of all the sincere devotees who are really willing to awaken their love for the Lord.

Inspite of being in this material world, a sincere devotee always strives to grow spiritually and love Krishna. He might face troubles and sometimes will be materially awarded but yet, he will keep getting purified to re establish his relationship with God by just sincerely serving Him and His devotees with a firm faith in Him.

Thank you for sharing this poem with us.

Snehal


*Reply*

Mon, 09/29/2008 - 08:54 — Karnamrita.das
Seeing the best

It is the characteristic of devotees to see the best even amidst the less than ideal. As all writers, I am happy to write something that you might find useful. It was useful to me, and though it is quite a simple work like all of my poems, it was inspired. I felt it deeply, and I feel emotion even writing about it now.

The knowledge and practice of bhakti is meant to soften our heart. Krishna has the softest heart, so to be with him we must be similar. As the Vedas say, "In order to enter Brahman (or spirit), you have to become Brahman", or as Prabhupada paraphrased, in order to enter fire, you have to become fire. So to enter Krishna's world of love, we have to have Prema!

Your friend in Krishna,

Karnamrita