Necessity for Continual Renewal: My Prayers to the Holy Names
My Dear Harinam [the holy name of Krishna] Prabhu [Master]:
Respectful Pranams to you and my worshipable gurus by whose mercy I can write and pray to you. I offer you here my desires and aspirations for service and spiritual attainment. May your will be done, through me, within me, and around me!
After countless births and deaths being averse to the Lord of my heart--you as the Divine couple--and your service, I have somehow come into contact with your agents Shrila Prabhupada and his advanced disciples who have reintroduced me to you.
Unfortunately over the years of having your association I have become too familiar with you and taken the gift of chanting and hearing your glories for granted. Now you have devised a strategy though the Japa Retreats to emphasize to me the importance and power of pure and concentrated japa [chanting Hare Krishna on beads]. Through teaching me to give you a special time and place, holy reverence, focused attention, and proper attitude I can by your mercy elevate my chanting to its proper place as the Emperor of all my activities and thoughts. At least I am working in that direction since we don't obtain a goal without making it and then we require considerable effort and grace. Practice makes perfect if Krishna is the center of our practice and life.
Please allow me to continue methods I have learned in the Japa Retreat and not fall back to my old habits. I have to set my priorities around chanting your holy names and letting my life serve that purpose, rather than having the chanting be an after-thought or the muzak of my life.
I will not give power to my doubts that tell me it is not possible to be a transformed chanter or that my life will consume or swallow me with material necessities or unnecessary desires when I return to my "normal" life.
Everything is possible by our effort, desire and the mercy of Shri Guru and Shri Chaitanya and Nityananda! Therefore I will pray everyday for this mercy in order to create the necessary conditions to make focused japa--which I feeling offer to Shri Shri Radha Krishna--the centerpiece of my life. I will always remember the perilous, dangerous condition of living in the material world. I will take the Name into my heart with utmost urgency to reestablish my loving ecstatic service to They who are the most dear--the Lords of my life and soul, the Divine Couple, my dear-most friends, Shri Shri Radha Gopinatha [Krishna the lover of the gopis].