Whenever I sit down to write, I imagine us being two dear friends having an ongoing conversation. My attempt is to share my convictions and faith (or even doubts and struggles) with you and speak something that may resonate with your mind, and ultimately your spiritual heart. There is so much philosophy in Gaudiya Vaishnavism just to satisfy our intellect, but for that knowledge to affect us, it has to be activated through the convictions and experiences of a devotee with some spiritual standing. From that perspective I am at a bit of a deficit, yet I am praying to be empowered to be helpful to others on their spiritual journey—whether a newcomer, or long standing spiritual bhakti practitioner. Although we are meant to awaken our spiritual humility as given by Shri Chaitanya (trnadapi sunicena, being humble like the grass, and tolerant like the tree as given in the third verse of Sri Sri Shikshastakam ), this also includes the confidence that we can be blessed to act as Divine instruments to help others, regardless of where we are on the devotional journey.
My desire was to read and write something about Shri Radha for her appearance day, or Radhastami, but I had too many other things to do in her service. Where I live, this holy day is on Sunday the 4th of September. Often we have to do things when they can be done, so my son came to help me with some home projects, and I am also studying for Bhakti-sastri (a course of study of my guru, Shrila Prabhapada's basic books, like his Bhagavad-gita As It Is). Tomorrow I will be cooking for Shri Radha, and then going to a nearby devotee Temple with incredibly lovely Radha Krishna Deities. We expect a big crowd, so after arotik and kirtan, we will come to our home for a reading and prasad, or sanctified vegetarian food. For our guests I had to clean the house in preparation. This is a different type of cleaning then just working for our family (which is not bad, mind you), but this cleaning and everything we do around the home, we endeavor to do it as an offering to our gurus, and Radha Krishna. Preparation for festivals is often more enlivening than the festivals themselves when we are fixed in a devotional mood. Though it is late and tomorrow will be full, rich, and busy, I at least wanted to say a few words about Radha, and also give you some special prayers for meditating on, and receiving her favor.
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Have you ever been down
then cheered up in the rain?
listening to soothing downpour
watching the wonder of water
mist caressing your face
feeling Krishna amidst beauty
rainlike tears share your grief
thunder shakes the house
Wow! Krishna is great,
powerful, yet dearest friend.
An interesting exercise for all of us is to think of ways that we remember, or could remember, Krishna, along with verses to support them. Krishna consciousness means, among other things, to remember and serve Krishna in love, so remembering Him is essential for those on the path of bhakti. A few blogs ago I spoke of seeing Krishna within everyone and everything and gave one example of thundershowers. Now I will further examine what I find of particular significance, relating it to Krishna. I hope you will think of your own examples of things that remind you of Krishna, or apply some of mine.
The most basic absorption of conditioned souls is their body. Even those who are devotees of Krishna use their body for service and are conscious of it. To me, of notable interest, is the changing condition of the body—especially old age, which I really notice.
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Hearing from a visiting sadhu
enlightening talk brings rain
celestial celebration jolts us
the firmament rejoices
I read till the fireworks cease
rising at 3:33 a.m.
being tired, a truth not considered
ablutions, then donning dancing dress
face and body decorated with tilak
for the stage performance, dress rehearsal
waking our Deities with grateful prayers
I hurry out the door, scurry to the car
greeted by the happy trees, plants, grass
fat and satisfied after sufficient water
driving to the Temple hearing
eternal truths lovingly spoken.
We have the inspiring verses in the sixth chapter of the Bhagavad Gita (29 & 30) that describe how the yogi or devotee sees Krishna within everyone, and everyone in Krishna. This means he or she sees Krishna everywhere, and that as a result, Krishna is never lost to such a person. This gives us a clue how to endeavor to see Krishna within every situation, person, and phenomenon we encounter. That is one of our jobs as a bhakta (Krishna devotee), since the perfection of our life is to be lovingly absorbed in remembering and serving Krishna, and those that are dear to Him. One of the most feeling attractions I have for Krishna, on a human level, is His manifestation in thundershowers, since they are such a dramatic, powerful, and aesthetically pleasing display of His material energy.
(I have adopted many of the words I shared on his disappearance day last year for this occasion, as they are sill of pressing importance to me, and repetition is the mother of learning.) On the appearance day of one’s guru it is customary to present an offering of glorification to one’s guru, and the process given by him or her. It may be directly expressed to the guru, and/or also addressed to the general audience. After the disappearance of one’s guru—or any founder of a religion or sect—many different conceptions of the guru and their teachings arise. This is an inevitable and unavoidable occurrence, and while one may favor their personal understanding, one can also do their best to understand the feelings and realizations of others, in the mood of diversity within the oneness of service to Prabhupada and Lord Chaitanya. The fact that there are many different ideas as to the essential teachings of our guru can make it difficult to express one’s heart—at least it is for me. Never the less, I will try to express something to honor Prabhupada along with my personal reflections about my relationship to him, and some realizations I have gleaned from my personal experience. I pray for the generosity, magnanimity, and blessings of my audience.
Regarding Shri Krishna Janmastami, or any appearance day of God, we could say that “God so loved the world, that He personally came to save us.” There are many resources on Krishna.com to help you understand the significance of this day even if you are born in India, and that is certainly true for those unfamiliar with the culture. Holidays used to mean Holy days, but now, at least in the West and in secular society, they often are just an excuse to not go to work. Never the less, Janmastami in India, in ISKCON temples and Gaudiya sangas (association of devotes of Krishna) worldwide, is still completely connected to Krishna and seen as a spiritual day to honor God and the soul, regardless of people’s conception of Divinity. It would be difficult to imagine an Xmastami ever developing!
Shastra chakshus means seeing, reasoning, and acting by the light of the scriptures. Everything Gaudiya Vaishnavas do, practice, and know comes from the Vedic scriptures, especially the Vaishnava scriptures. There are two important manifestations of Divinity for devotees of Krishna: the scripture Shrimad Bhagavatam, and the person who exemplifies them, or the person Bhagavatam. Of the two, the person Bhagavatam is more important, since he or she teaches us how to understand and live by the scriptures. The six Goswami disciples of Lord Chaitanya have studied all the Vedas thoroughly to give us the distilled essence of the scriptures to support the path of bhakti, in pursuit of prema (love of Krishna). Otherwise, we (or even great scholars without bhakti) can’t make sense of the often contradictory statements and recommendations for people in different modes of nature.
After weeks of very dry weather, we have finally received the mercy of rain, which has been coming down in torrents since last night. I can almost feel the living entities dancing in delight to receive such needed water. While offering mangal arotik at the temple this morning (pictured above), I thought about what an appropriate metaphor life giving rain is to the nature of Shri Balarama, whose holy appearance day is today. Balarama is the brother of Krishna, and his first expansion. He serves Krishna in innumerable ways—from being his clothes, ornaments, and worshipping paraphernalia, to the holy lands themselves, or the dhams, like Shri Vrindavan. Vrindavana is the original home of Krishna in the spiritual world, which he also manifests on this planet in India. Most importantly for us, the guru, or saintly teacher, is considered to represent Balarama, who is the original guru. Balarama gives us spiritual strength which is so helpful in remaining fixed on the spiritual path, in spite of innumerable distractions and temptations that may prompt us to give up the Godly quest, and enjoy matter.