I am dying---
are you sad?
Why is God doing this to me?—of all people
Come on, Really!!!
After all, I am a good person----not perfect mind you--but compared to those really bad people harming and killing others, and ruining the environment I am a good person.
I deserve a little credit, you know?
A Krishna.com friend asked me how to observe Lord Nrisimhadeva's appearance day at home. Although the day has come, here are some suggestions that can be applied for any of the Lord's appearance days.
For today you can read about his lila in the Srimad Bhagavatam, or other books about him if you have them. (There are articles on Krishna.com from BTG ).
You can chant prayers to him from Vaishnava song books (available on Krishna.com), and others in scripture, and sing Hare Krishna kirtana and chant japa on beads.
Sometimes it is said that “beauty is only ‘skin deep’”. One meaning of this expression is that we are attracted to the outward beauty of the body without understanding its' inner components and that it covers the soul or the true beauty within. When the inside of the body---“blood and guts”---becomes visible, the soul remembers that the person or creature is not their body.
Is it really so surprising
that anyone--even a senior--
would be a fool
for love and intimacy?
Working is a mixed blessing,
though it is true
that I needed to be
My Life’s Creed
Unlocking an inner portal---
my conscious awareness
of being, an openness
to receive and share truth.
My love and blessings
is what my soul radiates,
my need to connect deeply
with others in lasting friendships.
Sorting out my psychology
from my soul’s identity
(has been a very long study),
On my way to and from the Northern California Redwoods, I stopped in San Francisco, which is basically my hometown. I spent 14 years of my life there. In general I don’t feel particularly nostalgic for this town I grew up in, though I do have a fascination for my past. Why? I see how it has shaped me psychologically and the negative feelings and resentments from my childhood have caused me quite a bit of difficulty in my spiritual practice. It is a two edged sword, first helping me come to Krishna, and then presenting "issues" or attachments to be purified. It is funny how the motivations and consciousness that brought us to Krishna have to be transcended in time to call our spiritual progress.
Living in the country has really made the seasons much more alive for me. Yet this year in particular I have become powerfully aware of the deep feeling of spring. For this whole month there has been a perceivable change in the earth that I felt---a kind of knowing from a feeling level. The loud and excited chirping of the birds is an obvious physical and observable sign that something big is changing.
This morning I was listening to one of Prabhupada’s first lectures in New York City where he described the four miseries of life (birth, old age, disease and death) in a different way then I am used to. He described them as the 4 difficulties or the 4 imperfections. The word imperfection really got my attention. (Funny, because I have listened to these lectures many times.) I have noticed over the years that everyone has their gut level attractions and repulsions. From my material or false ego vision, I always notice physical imperfections, and frankly I greatly dislike them.
I have been working in a close friend's New Age store for the last 3 months in Winston-Salem. After having been semi-retired for the last four years without working outside our home, I realized I needed more interaction with others. My desire coincided with their need for someone to run the store while they were traveling to India for pilgrimage. They had a need, and I had a need. I expressed it to them, and then we could see Krishna behind this perfect arrangement.