I first started making garlands twenty years ago when I was a new bhaktin (aspiring devotee). I think I was traumatized by the experience. Not that it isn't a pleasure to make garlands for the Lord in His deity form. It wasn't that I couldn't make a nice garland either. It just would always take me much longer to make a garland than it would for anyone else, and I would always make mistakes. And I never felt satisfied that my service was actually suitable to offer. Eventually, I realized that it was a service better suited to others.