Just how do i do this....
... i think i mentioned previously that im married to a woman who attends a catholic church but despises the idea of KC. i try and chant everyday (although i miss days), i try a read a bit, listen to podcasts, and watch mayapur.tv to see what goes on, but i do this in private when i get a minute, sometimes when i know i should be sleeping, i stay up to do this.
Its getting so difficult, my wife was in India on business last week, so i put up a poster of krishna and radhe on my wall and left it there when she returned, it went within a hour of her coming back, she said she couldnt relax with it there, i was watching the George Harrison film, and as soon as the section with the krishna devotees came on i could see her discomfort and i could tell she wanted to turn it off.
Anything i want to do i feel i have a big wall in front of me called my wife, i cant talk about it at all,
Now i always read about divorce being a no-no, but how am i suppose to make any progression under such pressure, it makes me weak in my devotion, i want freedom to be within krishnas family, but she wont let me, if i leave her will Krishna and the devotees accept me.
After all the years i was alone in this material world, krishna waits until i have all these attachments before i find him.
a very frustrated soul