Letter To Srila Prabhupada
Name: Fallen Willpower.
Subject: Letter to His Divine Grace Abhay Charanaravinda (AC) Bhaktivedanta Swami Srila Prabhupada.
Destination: Krishnaloka’s Internet.
Hereby I salute all readers of wisdom.
The following words within this present post will be 100% directed to His Divine Grace (AC) Bhaktivedanta Swami Srila Prabhupada in Krishnaloka where I feel that AC’s eternal soul must be living now after His Spiritual Mission was Accomplished on Earth. As I read in this web site files AC stands for “One who is fearless having taken shelter at the lotus feet of Krishna.”
I believe that by means of Mystical Powers AC will read my “words” in Krishnalokas’s internet. And all readers are welcome to read my message though I may not reply any comment for my message goes straight to AC.
The message begins… Tomorrow… Because I’m sending this message from Mexico which is a country where everyone leaves important things to do for “Tomorrow…” due to a national tradition and also adding the prayer “…If God Allows.”
Sometimes, some people in Mexico will do important things on the same day. Such a seldom event would be possible only if God would be really willing to allow it to happen. Therefore, if I’m still writing, it surely means that God is allowing this to happen. Then I shall start The Message right now.
THE MESSAGE BEGINS.
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada, ki Jaya!
Dear Spiritual Master, sorry to bother you at Krishnaloka where I believe that you must be now.
I will address myself as “Fallen Willpower.”
Some years ago I used to have a spiritual name, which I gave to myself inspired by your teachings through your books. I haven’t been initiated yet by a Bona Fide Spiritual Master in Krishna Consciousness (KC). However in the past years I have been lucky enough in order to being able to meet some KC devotees. I have visited some of your temples. And through some time I was able to perform a personal program of Bhakti Yoga that included:
1) Waking up and first thing to do was offering respectful prayers unto you.
2) Next was taking a bath with cold water using a swimming suit in order to respect Indra and the bath would always be offered unto Krishna.
3) Then I would follow the Tilaka ceremony by using water instead.
4) Then I would do some Japa Chanting.
5) Then I would do some Chanting of Devotional Songs (Kirtana).
6) Then I would read one verse of Srimad-Bhagavatam.
7) Then I would have Prasadam for breakfast after offering boga unto you.
8) Then I would go to my job and my job was carried out as Karma Yoga, Action in KC, without attachment to the fruits of work.
9) Then I would have Prasadam for lunch after offering boga unto you.
10) Then I would do some evening kirtana.
11) Then I would read one verse from Bhagavad-Gita.
12) On certain days I would do a 24 hours fastening from food and water, twice a month.
13) Amazingly and despite of my past actions, during those days I was following the 4 Regulative principles.
And I was doing my personal Bhakti Yoga program every day for some time on my own, surrounded by an atmosphere of Non devotional places and Non devotional people everywhere. I remember that when people was curious to know about my habits I would tell them that I was trying to follow some teachings on my own and since I was not a person officially initiated then I was not in a preaching position so if somebody would be curious about my habits I would only suggest to them reading your books because they would get No preaching words from myself.
And so I was doing my personal Bhakti Yoga program every day for some time on my own Until one day Maya became stronger than ever and one by one all these habits started to vanish like a cloud in the sky.
What were the reasons why I became a Fallen Willpower person regarding Bhakti Yoga Performance?
Last thing I remember is that there was this nice woman…
I used to remember the verse in the Gita saying “While contemplating the objects of the senses a person gets attached to the objects of the senses. From such attachment Lust arises. Then From Lust Anger arises. From Anger Bewilderment of memory arises. Then intelligence is Lost. Then one falls in Illusion. And then one falls down again into the material pool of cycles of birth and death.” It’s in the Gita. I don´t remember the Number or Chapter of this verse.
As well I used to practice looking at women visualizing Vishnu Paramatma The Supersoul within the female heart.
Well, to make a long story short, somehow this woman’s temporary material beauty went beyond my efforts to control the mind. And sooner than expected I was no longer doing my Bhakti Yoga program anymore. It’s been some years so far.
The reason I’m sending you this message today is to let you know that now there is a special problem.
I didn’t have internet installed at home until this present month. And you wouldn’t believe how easy is to get lost in Maya web sites. And you wouldn’t believe the kind of Maya situations that can happen on certain web sites. I won’t provide you with details.
The only thing I am sure about is that if I will have to have internet installed at home, then I will certainly need to have some kind of communication with you again through this web site in which I am posting this message to you.
Who knows when my name will change from Fallen Willpower into the spiritual name that I used to use for myself inspired by your teachings. However this must be the beginning.
If I will use the internet because is part of my job with computer programs, then I request from you with humbleness that you better bring me back again into this web site in order to send you some more messages rather than surfing the web and looking into web sites that are not spiritual at all. They are Just Maya web sites.
Thank you very much. And if I do return to post more messages in here it will certainly mean that “…God is allowing it.”
For the moment I’ll write the Maha Mantra:
Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna, Hare Hare;
Hare Rama, Hare Rama, Rama Rama, Hare Hare./
I wrote One Time The Maha Mantra.
Chanting the Maha Mantra 108 times = 1 Round.
16 Rounds is The Daily amount of Rounds one should be chanting.
Well. On my next visit here I shall write the Maha Mantra twice. “…If God allows.”
Hare Krishna! All Glories To You The Bona Fide Spiritual Master Srila Prabhupada.
Truly, Fallen Willpower.