My Shining Shadow
My love for Sri Krishna grew from a seed planted over 11 years ago by a devotee who prayed with me in LAX. I was only 16 and was being rushed by my group to catch our flight. I did not really give it much thought. Fast forward 4 years. I heard My Sweet Lord and fell in love with the only part I couldn't understand. I listened to it hundreds of times in a matter of days. After searching on the internet for the lyrics and then the meaning of the lyrics, I stumbled across an image of the Lord and I instantly felt whole. I did not realize how broken I was until that moment. I listened to more music and looked at more pictures. A few months later I was perusing the clearance shelves of the bookstore. I found a copy of the Bhagavad-Gita and said "That's HIM!" I carried that book with me everywhere. I stopped eating meat. About six months after that, I was picking my son up from day care. It was naptime and the care giver had quiet music playing in the background. As I was gathering his things I heard, "Hare Krishna". I thought to myself, "There HE is again!" I asked her so many questions. I was so happy to find a real person that I could converse with about my experiences. She got me connected with the temple (which was literally 3 straight miles from my house) and wonderful people who helped me learn.
I truly can't remember why I stopped going to temple. It was one excuse after another. I kept everything I had safely up so it could not be harmed.
Two nights ago I had a frightening dream that I was a small boy and I was being sacrificed to a beast. I broke away and hid. While I was hiding I heard screaming and then everything fell silent. I had my eyes closed out of fear, but I felt someone pick me up and carry me away. When I opened my eyes I saw it was HIM!!!
I awoke deeply in love.