Om ajanana timirandhasya jnananjana-salakaya
Caksur unmilitam yena tasmai sri-guruve namah
Nama om visnu-padaya krsna-presthaya bhu-tale
Srimate bhaktivedanta-swamin iti namine
Namas te sarasvate deve gaura-vani-pracarine
My Dearmost Srila Prabhupada,
The auspicious mahotsava appearance of Your Divine Grace has caught me once again feeling inadequately prepared to offer my gratitude appropriately. Humbly, I offer my respectful obeisances in the dust at your lotus feet. All glories to Your Divine Grace, who so gallantly has plucked me from the turbulence of the ocean of nescience, that I may properly see my precarious condition.
This is the 34th year that has transpired since your departure from our physical senses, leaving them bereft of satiation, in the ocean of grief of separation from your holiness. Yet, we grow closer to Your Divine Grace daily, due to the uncanny nature of Your merciful glance within our memory.
As we members of ISKCON continue to evolve, your plan to inundate Bhumiloka with the Yuga Dharma of Harinama Sankirtana from our growing urban centers, and expand the Vrndavana-like farming communities throughout the world as the exemplary ideal contained within Sri Krishna's heart – manifest on this planet; I pray for the understanding that we all need to effectively cooperate together to attain the realizations necessary, that we may overcome the envious tendency for diatribe rather than constructive criticism in our neophyte consciousness.
Due to the ‘Damocles’-effect of impending death that this material environment is fraught with, and the advancement in the age of direct disciples of Your Divine Grace; it is most important that I beg Your forgiveness for all of my shortcomings in failing to help you to achieve a consensus of effort amongst all of my godbrothers and godsisters to integrate our individual personalities more firmly and cooperatively in the above-mentioned services.
Where we have successfully developed independent efforts at carrying on the Sankirtana mission including the ongoing distribution of your books, and we have similarly carried on the farming community efforts in much fewer locations; the process of combining the two efforts into an effective partnership has fallen far short of what you have described in your books, lectures and vision for us. Your objective of having the preaching centers (urban Temples) operate as an ‘induction-center’ which, after the initial introduction of Krishna consciousness, would then direct those who do not participate in direct Sankirtana services (or support services) to the establishment of a farming community within reasonable traveling distance from the Temple – has not been realized! I am truly ashamed to make such a statement 34 years after you have left it in our hands…
Although there remains a variety of obstacles, and my personal shortcomings are too numerous to list here, I remain confident that the process will continue to evolve, as Lords Gauracandra’s and Nitaicandra’s intent is clear! I pray to see the ongoing integration and expansion of your plans to give every living entity access to a localized taste of Sri Krishna's “Vrndavana atmosphere”!
Personally, as you well know, it has been my heart and soul’s wish and effort since 1975 to collect information, collate that information into a plan and to share the ‘plan’ for a coordinated effort to establish this aforementioned integration of farm communities with our urban temples.
Thank You so much for allowing me the good association of Salagram dasa Adhikary’s patience and wisdom in helping me these last three years to solidify these thoughts and efforts into a functional service. Your personal hand in allowing me to experience the camaraderie of his insights, and share in this pleasure of your service is so wonderful in this regard! As a result, more are becoming interested in this effort, and are gradually also participating individually and collectively in a variety of similar projects.
Please allow me to continue serving you despite my numerous faults. You remain my only hope, inspiration and shelter. All glories to Your Divine Grace!