Pranjal Joshi (Jaipur, India)
Please accept my humble obeisance…All glories to Srila Prabhupada !
Respected Srila Prabhupada,
I know that I am not yet qualified to call myself your disciple, but I am trying from my side to follow the path that you laid down for us.
I was living in this material world which is full of suffering and ignorance, I had absolutely no idea of good or bad, right or wrong. There was extreme misery and distress I my life. In 2003 I first came across ‘The Bhagavad Gita as It Is’ that was given to me by my friend. That was the day when my spiritual journey started.
I know that one cannot repay you back for what you have given to us; even if I serve you for millions of lives; but I am so unfortunate that I still have strong material attachments due to which I am unable to fully surrender to you. I sometimes feel very low because of this.
I am trying to focus on my sadhana as much as possible;
chanting 16 rounds every day; doing the morning and evening sadhana and trying to serve other Vaishnavas as per my capacity. I have a strong desire to preach the sankirtan movement all over the world; by distributing your books and mantra cards etc.
There are many ways to spread your movement. I feel that whenever the Krishna Consciousness movement reaches a ‘jiva’, his life will be changed completely. If I had not taken association of my devotee friends; then I would have continued with my aimless journey.
Whenever a devotee gives a lecture or I get a chance to honor prasadam or I see any other spiritual ‘ray of hope,’ I move in that direction and try to get the mercy of Guru and Gauranga.
I pray to the dust of your lotus feet, Srila Prabhupada, I that I always get a chance of serving your lotus feet and get the association of other devotees, so that I can do my sadhana properly. I often think of you and try to meditate more and more on your words and instructions regarding each and every matter.
Sometimes I feel horrified and disgusted when I see that even though there is so much suffering in this material world; still people are not ready to take up to Krishna Consciousness.
Things here are so temporary, yet they are so attractive.
I may sometimes see that many devotees have to correct themselves, but I know the first need is for me to see my own faults and correct them. The culture and temperament of people is taking a bad shape; people these days have gone morally bankrupt and ‘morality and conscience’ do not exist anymore.
Please bless us, Srila Prabhupada Ji, so that these things change in this material world; and people in this Kali yuga can also take to Vedic culture.
Kindly accept this piece of writing as ‘Vyasa Puja Offering’ from my side and shower your blessings upon this most fallen soul. I just beg for your mercy my Guru Maharaj and I aspire to be your faithful servant.
Aspiring to be your servant
PRANJAL JOSHI (Jaipur, India)