"The married man laments, 'Why did I marry? I could have remained free.' And he who is not married laments, 'Oh, why didn’t I accept a wife? I would have been happy.'”
"Emergency treatment had countered the extreme dehydration, and the Ampecillin pumping into my vein from the marvelous machine seemed to be doing the job."
To gain fame and recognition, he wanted to become a pop music star. But he thought his ultimate perfection would come by merging into the "Supreme Oneness."
This excerpt from the biography of Srila Gaura-kishora Dasa Babaji gives clear insight into the qualifications and activities of a pure devotee of Krishna.